For 5 years and some change I have carved out a small corner of the internet based around a project I did when I was 18. The Blue Book Project has brought me many things – joy, pride, sadness, embarrassment, laughs, and frustration to name a few, but as of next week that comes to an end.
As of next Wednesday, I will be removing The Blue Book Project from all streaming platforms. This announcement is bittersweet. There is something wholesome about the album, 18-year-old me had no idea what she was doing. She recorded it for pennies in someone’s basement with a bunch of friends from high school. It was created and promoted at a time in my life that was massively unstable and it provided stability. I was able to push aside all the chaos and create something. It gave me something to prop myself up with when the rest of my life was truly in shambles. It’s sad to take that part of the internet away.
But if we’re living in a space of honesty, I’m relieved to take it down. The Blue Book Project is equal parts nostalgia and embarrassment. I have not yet aged out of “embarrassment” as I look at that album. Listening to it reminds me of all the thing I would have changed. My sister described it as “Nice, but you can tell it’s homemade.” A wonderfully accurate sentiment.
However, embarrassment aside. I am excited.
This removal is nowhere near impromptu. It is the culmination of a lot of hard work over the last TWO YEARS that is finally coming to fruition. I want a fresh start and the best way to do that? To take down my old friend and make way for bigger and better things.
Maybe one day I’ll repost it. Maybe one day I’ll even get around to rerecording it, Taylor-style. However, for now, it is time to retire The Blue Book Project.
Anyone who knows anything about me knows exactly what is coming next. Frankly, I am banking on the fact that only my family and friends read this blog. I’m not really breaking the internet with my virality. That being said, I did want to provide a formal warning that in 7 days, The Blue Book Project will disappear. If you still want to own this corner of the internet, below I have provided you with some ways to stream. Or if you are truly committed to the ownership of Victoria-Embarrassment-Bait, you can hunt it down on iTunes (if anyone still buys music anymore).
I love you all, let’s get ready.
From me, with love, to you,
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